A Bug's Life

So much has happened since the last time I have entered a blog. Mainly the loss of my best friend. My feelings are torn and bleeding. Ripped and unable to recover. I dont know if we will ever be the same again. I was treated like dirt. Pushed aside. Unimportant. I was angry. I just needed a few days to breathe, then everything would be ok. But within days every mutual friend new and are on his side. They look down on me and have turned their backs. The feeling of having some of my closest friends question me is unbearable. Who can I turn to when I am down? Nobody except my best friend Gigi. Why you ask? Because for different reasons she needed a few days to recover. The same thing happened to her. he blew it out of proportion. Everyone knows because he is so childish. Gigi and I were being adult like and not involving anyone because it was none of their buiness. The only people we told was my mother, my best friend Breanne, Gigi's mom, and Gigi's best friend Renee. Yet everyone seems to think that because we dont display our emotions, we are cold hearted and inhuman. They don't see that we are hurting and in pain. I don't know if it is possible for he and I to be friends again. Best friends may even be pushing it. He was like my brother. A family member. And now he is dead to me. I have never experienced so much pain and humiliation. My heart is broken and may never mend.

At least I will not be alone.